Wednesday, October 12, 2011

You did not even say goodbye


अलविदा भी न कहा

तुम्हारी गाड़ी के चालु होने की आवाज़ से मेरी दोपहर की नींद टूटी. मै उत्साहपूर्वक गाड़ी में कूद पड़ा - इस अपेक्षा से कि आज फिर कहीं दूर कि सैर पर चलेंगे.
उस रोज़ रास्ते कि हर गंघ मेरे लिए नई जान पड़ती थी - जैसे उन में भी किसी रहस्य का तत्व हो. 
गाड़ी से उतरा तो संपूर्ण भूभाग में नवता पायी. उस पर से तुम्हारे करो के बीच मुझे मेरा प्रिय खिलौना दीख पड़ा.
मै प्रफुल्लित हो तुमसे लिपट गया.

तुमने फेंका और मै झट दबोच लाया. तुमने और दूर फेंका, मै फिर से ले आया.
तुम्हे यह ज्ञात था कि यह मेरा पसंदीदा खेल है. पर आने वाली परिस्थिती से मै अज्ञात था.
इस बार तुमने पूरी जान से मेरी फ्रिस्बी को दूर - बहुत दूर फ़ेंक दिया.
मै पूरे आवेग से दौड़ा, किन्तु अपनी फ्रिस्बी को मुह में दबोच कर जब पलटा तो दृश्य को बेहद भयावना पाया.
बात को समझ पाने की कशमकश में अपने खिलौने को मैंने और जोर से जकड़ लिया.

क्या गलती हुई मुझसे? क्यूँ तोड़ रहे हो तुम मुझसे अपना सम्बन्ध? 
क्यूँ ऐसा कि तुम हो कुलीन और मै तुम्हारे अधीन?

मेरे आतंकित मन और भयवश थरथराते तन कि तुमने कोई परवाह न की. 

अपनी गाड़ी लेकर तुम गायब हो गए शाम कि उस गोधुली में.
मुझे पीछे छोड़ गए एक निर्जान खिलौने के सहारे. बैठा रहा मै टकटकी लगाये, पूरी निष्ठा से, तुम्हारे इंतज़ार में.
मेरे पीछे का सूर्य क्षीण हो चला और संपूर्ण परिवेश गहरा गया.
दिन ढलते गए, शामें जाती रहीं. तुम्हारे इंतज़ार में मै वहीं पड़ा रहा.
तुम्हे ताकते - ताकते बस ये ही सोचता रहा -  हमारे धवल सम्बन्ध का इतना धूमिल अंत क्यूँ?
अपनी आखिरी सांस के साथ मैंने अंतिम बार तुम्हारा नाम लिया और अपनी वेदना से वहीँ ढेर हो गया.

क्यूँ तुमने मुझे न चाहा मालिक? क्यूँ न कि मेरी परवाह?
क्या मै तुम्हारे लिए बस एक झबरीले बालो वाली लार टपकाती वस्तु था?
मै वहीं पर पड़ा रहा मालिक तुम्हारे इंतज़ार में, पर शायद मेरा ख़याल रखना तुम्हारे लिए बोझ था.

अब मै नही हूँ मालिक, अब हम भी नही बचे - मै और तुम.
पर अब भी बचा है एक प्रशन - क्यूँ तुमने एक बार अलविदा भी न कहा?


Inspired from a popular English poem - http://jaagruti.org/2011/10/03/an-abandoned-pet-you-didnt-even-say-goodbye/ 

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Love is the Best Fuel

If life is a journey, and the human being is the vehicle, then the best fuel for a successful completion of this journey is love. When we substitute some other emotion and make it our central core, our fuel, the vehicle obviously cannot perform as well as it should. The journey is then no longer smooth, but jumpy, noisy, bouncy, uncomfortable, prone to frequent breakdowns and constantly needing help from others to set it right.
Love is available in plenty; it is unlikely to be depleted. Every human being is a source of this fuel called love. We are capable of producing love 24 hours a day, endlessly. Love is our natural state.



Love works slowly as compared to its opposite emotions, namely fear and hate. Though love is natural, hate and fear come to us much more easily. If you want to get a group of people together for a common cause and under a common banner, love for something might take you years to unite them. Hate and fear can work in a matter of minutes. Hence the natural enemies of love are much more powerful and appealing to us. Love appeals to the true being of soul, while the mind thrives on hate and fear, more than love.
Why does fear predominate, when we all know that love is the true fuel of life? This is where the mind comes in. Our true being or spirit thrives only on love. But between spirit and body is another important entity- the mind. The control of our lives, instead of being in the hands of our spirit, has been taken over by the mind. And the mind is complex. It is logical and illogical, rational and irrational, good and bad, loving and hating, giving and grabbing, killing and rescuing, full of hope and help, while also filled hopelessness and helplessness. Mind is a paradox, unpredictable with its own way of functioning. It is volatile and restless; yet, it constantly seeks peace, stillness and stability.
To be with the mind means to live our lives like a roller coaster ride. Up and down, side to side, in and out – the ride goes on. The stability and stillness that we seek in our lives, the rest and relaxation that we crave for, the peace and calmness that we desperately need, are not to be found in the arena of the mind. If they are found, they will come coupled with their respective opposites. This is the duality of life. Duality is always of the mind. The spirit or soul is always one. And it needs only one fuel- LOVE.
One cannot get love without first giving love. That is the law of nature. In existence, giving comes before receiving, sowing come before reaping. But we are unaware of this. We seek and hope to receive without wanting to give. So, the first step, which is totally in our hands, is to give love. And then we will receive love not as much as we want or as much as we have given, but a thousand times more. The Universe is ready and waiting to flood us with love. But it needs us only to take the first small step of giving. The Buddha used to say to his disciples, “If you knew the power of giving, you would not have a single meal in your life without first sharing it with someone.”

Source: http://articles.timesofindia.indiatimes.com/2011-06-29/edit-page/29716324_1_love-works-fuel-journey

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Feeling Content

Have you ever longed for a satisfying and peaceful life? What is it that’s required for feeling content? A person needs to be happy so as to lead a peaceful and content life. But what exactly is this Happiness? Nothing describes it better than the following quote:

Happiness is like a butterfly
The more you chase it, the more it will elude you.
But if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.



All that matters is your attitude towards life. The key in being happy is to feel content by embracing a positive attitude. Although it is not easy to take everything that comes your way in a positive sense but to achieve this feat, it is important not to be afraid of the doubts and queries that we face constantly. That is coz there’s always something that we may learn.
In this post, I have listed out 4 self realizations and 4 learning that were made through the study of Shri Yogavashitam. I strongly believe that these self-realizations combined with the learning from the sacred texts of Yogavashishtam can help in leading a satisfying and peaceful life.


The Self-Realizations:

1.       Remain close to nature. When we feel connected to the nature, when we become a part of nature, we feel immense contentment. It is important to appreciate the beauty of lush green hills, soaring mountain peaks, vast expanse of the sea, the chirping of birds and the fondness of animals. Personally, I have always been close to nature. Not only do I enjoy the company of birds and animals, but I can feel that they also enjoy my company. I enjoy feeding pigeons, caressing dogs, watching squirrels, loving cows and other such activities. Moreover, the serenity of mountains, valleys, green vegetation and other such beautiful sceneries fill my heart and soul with joy.
2.       Don’t get too attached.  Getting too much attached to something or someone, living or dead, tangible or intangible, human or animal, male or female (or ... :P ), your own or someone else’s, is the single most severe reason that drains the satisfaction and contentment from a person’s life. The thoughts that ‘stick’ to our mind and don’t let go are the principle cause of attachment. These sticky thoughts – known as our vasnaas ( vasan is a Sanskrit root meaning sticky) are something we should all try to keep at bay. But it is easier said than done. Thus for a beginner, the first step in this direction would be to not get attached to whatever we do. This in turn controls the intensity and duration of our smriti (loosely related to memory). It is noteworthy that without smriti, there can’t be vasnaa and getting attached to something makes it very difficult for us to forget it.
3.       Put your heart and soul in the work you do. This is the most essential thing required for leading a satisfying life. It was once pointed out by Steve Jobs - “It is because our work is going to fill a large part of our life and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work, and the only way to do great work is to love what you do.” It should be made clear that putting your heart and soul in the work we do is about getting fully involved and engrossed in your work. It is different from getting attached. Thus we must learn to put a mammoth effort in the work we do without getting attached to it. It is important to maintain this delegate balance and avoid crossing the line of involvement – attachment.
4.       Be aware of death. This is another important aspect involved in being content. The best way to do this is to look in the mirror every morning and ask yourself – “If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?” This is actually a very effective way of being satisfied. It is because remembering that I will be dead soon is the most important thing to make the big choices in life, because almost everything – all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. Following this approach empowers a person to follow his own heart.

These are the conclusions that I have made after learning about the ideas of Shri Yogavasishtam. These self-realizations have dawned upon me as a result of learning through the course in part and also through self introspection. So as to conclude, I would like to cite the following important ideas of the sacred text, remembering and understanding which can pave the way to lead a truly satisfying and peaceful life. So as to maintain the originality of the teachings, I have tried to cite them ‘as-it-is’ in their original form and tense.

The Learning:

  • World is a reflected manifestation of Brahman in the mirror of mind with all the three (Brahman, World, Mind) being in Brahman. Brahman is non-dual. But the world displays multiplicity. Due to this we can’t live in the world without duality. But sticking with duality will not allow us to be aware of the nitya. Thus the solution is to be a dvaitiya when we are in the world and be an advaitiya when we are with ourselves.
  • Great Doer (Maha Kartaa): is the one who performs actions as they occur to him without any hesitation or doubts. Although this doesn’t mean he/she has the freedom to do anything. He must conduct himself appropriately in this transient world.
  • Great Enjoyer (Maha Bhoktaa): One who does not hate anything, does not desire anything but enjoys all there is available in current, is known as great enjoyer. If we become a great enjoyer, then everything pleases us.
  • Great Renouncer: One who rejects in his mind: happiness-unhappiness, birth-death, sweet-bitter, all desires, all doubts, all rewards, motivated efforts and all determinations (Sankalpa).
Thus it all boils down to this –

Becoming a great enjoyer, a great doer and a great renouncer will result us in leading a content and peaceful life.

Refrences: The sacred texts of shri Yogavashishtam and Steve Jobs speech at Stanford

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Aarogya

Note : The following content is more relevant for the people of my institute - IIIT, Hyderabad.


If you or anyone among your neighbors recently felt a need to seek a doctor’s advice, you must be aware of the health center facility viz. Aarogyaa which has been functional for more than two months now. The word aarogyaa literally means being ‘disease-free’. Providing a doctor for consultation when a person is sick is necessary but insufficient for being aarogyaa. Keeping this in mind, the health center has come to offer many Naturopathy services on a no-profit basis. Our yogachaarya Vinayak ji was visibly excited when we inquired about the health center. He told that the idea of dirt being the root cause of disease is the basis of naturopathy. Disease is caused by the dirt in our body, activities and mind. Naturopathy cures through cleansing us off this dirt. Rejuvenation and treatment services that are currently offered include body massage, hair massage, sauna bath, mud bath, steam bath, etc. With the aim of gauging the quality of services being currently offered, I decided to try out a full body massage session. All you need to do is to tell your hostel guard and you can then fix an appointment for yourself at a time that suits you. One thing that I could tell after the massage is that it certainly feels good. Yuktahaar staff has undergone proper training for offering these therapies. Separate women employees are available for catering to the ladies. In addition to a full body massage, I was offered a partial mud-bath session as a complimentary service which was rejuvenating but messy for obvious reasons. A decent kitchen-garden is also being maintained at the back side of the health center. Homegrown and self prepared medicines from turmeric, jaggery, amla etc are prepared at the center. When asked about the infrastructure costs that were incurred in setting up this facility, Vinayak ji proudly said that he believed in the concept of Kabaad se Jugaad. I would encourage the readers to visit the health center and see for themselves what he actually meant by this.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Don't Quit

  • Don't quit when the tide is lowest,
For it's just about to turn;
  • Don't Quit over doubts and questions,
For there's something you may learn.
  • Don't quit when the night is darkest,
For it's just a while 'til dawn;
  • Don't quit when you've run the farthest,
For the race is almost won.
  • Don't quit when the hill is steepest,
For your goal is almost nigh;
  • Don't quit, for you're not a failure
Until you fail to try.




Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Dvaita Vs Advaita

With reference to excerpts from sacred texts of Yogvashishtam (Maharamayana)

Question of king Rama : O Mahatma, Brahman is free of sorrow. But this world is full of sorrow. Brahman is non-dual. But the world displays multiplicity. Ans so your words are not clear. Please explain this to me.
Rama's Surprise : O sage, this falsehood and ignorance are detestably lowly. It is unreal and yet it as blinded this world ! Surprising !

Discussion: When we look around us, we see the world to be multifaceted. Not just the world, even people around us including ourselves are multifaceted. With all its varied colors, the world appears to be having innumerable flavors to it. We ourselves come across all sort of incidents. Real bother murdering his own brother for property or a friend who puts his friendship ahead of his own personal interest. Revelations of all sorts abuses rampant in society or news of a family praying together for their bread-winner who is settled in another nation. The world has so many flavors to it. There is gloomy darkness which surrounds us and so is there the sunny brightness that we all cherish. If we closely try to observe, the bipolar nature of world is evident to all of us. It seems the world is constituted by two poles. ie: any object / person / activity / practice cannot be termed as good or bad. There can't be a clear demarcation. We don't normally come across a person who is 100% pure and saatvik in his conduct. Vice-versa is also true. This bi-polar or Dvaita nature has been highlighted in many cultures. For eg: the Chinese culture has a well developed concept of Yin and Yang. The term Yin and Yang are viewed with many varied meanings. Yin can refer to the feminine aspects and Yan can refer to the masculine aspects of the world. But the original concept of yin and yang came from the observation of nature and the environment. Yin originally referred to the the shady side of a mountain slope while Yang referred to the sunny side. Later this thinking was used in understanding other occurrences, which occurred in pairs and had complementary and opposing nature. For eg: sky & earth, day & night, water & fire, active & passive, male & female, etc. Yang is associated with energetic qualities. Yin, on the other hand, is associated with the physical form of an object. Here are a few comparisons :

YinYang
DarkBright
ColdHot
RestMovement
InwardOutward
InhibitoryExcitatory

Not only that the world can be viewed as bi-polar, It is not possible to experience a single / monopole ie: we don't encounter a person who is only bright and sunny in all aspects of his character and does not have any darker or grey shades associated with him. Vice-versa is also true. Not only just persons, we also don't encounter any object which is absolutely bright or dark ( we can always find a brighter object than a bright object). Neither do we encounter a female who does not posses even slightest of the masculine traits or a man who has absolutely zero feminine characteristics. Thus we observe that not only the world is bi=polar, but also there are two sides to a coin. We cannot categorize a person as being Black (dark) or White (bright). We are all shades of grey. Now that we have reached a stage where we are able to appreciate the bi-polar or dual nature of world. Now we ponder how can all these observations be possibly accommodated by Advaita vedanta? First let us get some basic understanding about advaita vedanta. Advaita literally means 'non-dual' and it is one of the most influential ideas of sanatan dharam ( Hindu philosophy ). In the conversation between guru Vashishta and king Rama, Vashishatha also tries to highlight that although it might appear otherwise, but the concept of monoism (advaita ) holds true. If we try to give this a thought, the ideas of dualism and monoism do seem to be contradictory. If Brahman is non-dual and the world as a whole itself is a manifestation of Brahman in various forms, how is it that the world displays multiplicity? Even king Rama had a similar question in his mind and demanded further clearance from hi guru. The concept of advaita vedanta was consolidated in Hindu philosophy by adi shankara. Advaita (noan-dualism) essentially refers to the identity of the self ( Aatman ) and brahman. Advaita vedanta says that the only 'truth' and non-transient is brahman and it alone 'exists'. Thus transient entities do not have an absolute existence, much as the ocean's waves have no existence in separation from the ocean. Advaita vedanta states that Brahman is the only truth. The spatio-temporal world is an illusion and there is ultimately no difference between brahman and individual self. The Hamsa ( 'bar - headed goose') is an important motif in advaita vadanta. Its symbolic meanings are as follows :
1. Upon verbally repeating Hamsa, it becomes soham. ( meaning 'I am that.')
2. Even as hamsa lives in water, its feathers are not sullied by it. A liberated advaitin lives in this world full of maya but is untouched by its illusion.
3. A monk of the Dashanami order is called a Pramhamsa.

If we try to analyse the ideas of dualism and non-dualism, they seem to be counter-intuitive with respect to each other. But we get some hints as to how do we address this problem and these hints come from the texts of Yogavashishtam. According to the utpatti prakarna, the world is real as brahman - consciousness and unreal as mental consciousness. Moreover, our mind is conscient and inconscient at the same time. Due to this duality, the whole world is caused. This also provides us with a slight hint about how we should conduct ourselves in this world which is real and unreal at the same time. We can't live in the world without duality. But 'sticking' with duality will not let us be aware of the Nitya which is brahman. This can be summarized as being a Dvaita when we are dealing with the world and an Advaita in our our own mind. This kind of explanation was one of the primary reasons for king Rama's surprise. It is because most of us treat everything with the notion of dualism and forget that in its true form everything is just a different manifestation of the brahman itself. It is due to our not being aware about the brahman that we get sucked into the duality of the world. That is why king Rama is surprised at this falsehood and ignorance about the true nature of world. Our ignorance about the advaita vedanta and brahman is what has blinded us.
After all this discussion, although we can conclude that the advaita vedanta and the duality philosophy can actually accommodate each other. But What led to the manifestation of advaita brahman into form of a world that, in all senses and experiences, appears to follow dualism ? It is amazing how simple and trivial its explanation can be. Lets try to take an analogy.
The principle of duality is fundamental to physics. For eg: radiations ( cosmic rays, light rays, X-rays, etc) posses both wave and particle nature. Similarly materials ( electrons, protons, etc) also posses this wave-particle duality. Thus we can draw a corollary between Yin-Yang and wave-particle. These do not exist as a monopole but everything has an inherent wave-particle duality. Just like everything has attributes of Yin & Yang. But Brahaman itself does not have any attributes. Everything is just a manifestation of Brahaman in various forms. Where does this possibly fir into our analogy? If we look at the following illustration :

Matter is a form of energy. E = MC2
Radiation is also a form of energy. E = hv
So we observe that Energy is visible to us in various forms. Energy manifests itself in various forms. Matter as well as radiation has inherent duality of wave and particle. But Energy is free from any such duality. ie: Energy is Advaita. Similarly we can argue that Brahaman in its absolute unmanifested form os advaita. The issue of duality rises only because of Brahaman's manifestation in form of Yin & Yang. Thus we can say that every object / being / quality is only a manifestation of Brahaman. This necessarily means that although the 6 virtues शम, दम, उपरति, तितिक्ष, श्रद्ध, समाधान are very much part of Brahaman. But also deadly sins including काम, क्रोध, लोभ, मोह, मद, मत्सर, अहंकार, आलस्य etc. are equally part of Brahaman. Because ultimately everything is Brahaman. There exists nothing which is not brahman. That is why although it is absolutely necessary of being aware about Brahaman being the only truth / नित्य, it is equally important to know the way of our conduct. Because it is clear from my illustration that although in its absolute form everything is Brahman, but due to the maniestation of Brahman in the form which we experience as the world, the dual nature is equally valid. Hence the need to know how to conduct ourselves in this transient world.

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Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Is there a meaning of life ?

As a species that is capable of higher order thinking, we treat life which is something to be valued. Being 'intelligent' means that we try to associate a meaning with life. We all seek the reason of our existence. We try to know the aim/objective that is supposed to be accomplished. I believe in the principle of causality. There is a cause of everything including life. If we wish to seek the meaning of life, we must first try to know its cause in a holistic manner. Since I do believe that 'something' or 'someone' caused life, therefore, in my view, there should definitely be a meaning of life. It can't be that the objective of life is merely to grow, reproduce and generate more of one's own kind. There must be a larger meaning of the overall picture painted on this canvas (of world) of which we are merely spray dots of God's brush. But even these small dots must have a significance to the overall picture.

What does life mean to me ?

I feel that we are just tiny parts of a huge framework but have our own little roles to play. In a way, I do not support existentialist thinking. Things just don't work out fine if we try to put self as the the center. My motto of life is 'Hanso Hansaao, Mauj Manao'. To me, life means is about mutual co-existence. I see all the dark and light shades of this world as the elements that enrich out lives. To me, life means to be committed towards relationships and work alike. It is all about not letting yourself bowled out and remaining in high spirits (Chad-di-kalaan in Punjabi). Two things that would never fail you in life are innovation and creativity. For me, the meaning of life is to make it a celebrated one. People sometimes say things to me like - 'You were born to make people laugh.' I find a lot of satisfaction in such comments.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Ballad Of Life

Stop & look inside.
Where have we come from?
Where are we heading to?
Being always busy in worldly affairs,
is it the right thing to do?
NO ITS NOT, NO NO

Which country does 'he' belong to?
Is he not one of us?
His language - its not same.
His religion - its not same.
Is he not one of us?
We looked inside, did we?
We found 'him' different, did we?
NO WE DID NOT, NO NO

We suffer from a sense of loss.
Do we ever realize who is the real boss?
We have all felt his presence benign.
But have we ever talked to the divine?
DEFINITELY NOT, NO NO

The essence of life lies in lending help.
But why help people who simply yelp.
There are so many out their who are in need.
Unlike others, filled with greed.
Defining our life through helping the destitute.
That's the way YES
In this, you be resolute.